hmmm…i can’t picture it. can you?
reverse psychology 2007/11/14
after having tried everything else in our power to get henri to come out (with not even a little teensy bitsy bit of avail), we’re going to try a little “planned ignoring” on this stubborn guy. maybe the reverse psychology will work??? if not, i am going to TURN THIS CAR AROUND AND GO HOME, GOD DAMN IT!
what’s the plan? 2007/11/05
today’s the due date, so i guess i should write this so-called “birth plan”… i think kfrayz has already written it for me; so, that’s good. [it’s not that i don’t want to write the birth plan, i just don’t want to write the birth plan.] it seems too official in some way; like, planning a party or something. but, this is a party i don’t really have control over. so, what’s the point of planning it?
actually, i’ve been conscious throughout the entire pregnancy not to really plan things out. i think that has kept me healthy, mentally and physically…to just get through each day as it comes. of course, i’ve also been focused on many other things (work, work & work) so i haven’t had time to stress out about the future. but now i kind of like this feeling: thinking about today, experiencing today, enjoying today. it’s still a relatively new feeling, but i’m definitely getting used to it.
still…i am an opinionated gal. so, there must be some things that i definitely want to come out of the birth. (a baby would be nice.) other than that–i’d like to remember the experience, whatever it may be. i’d like to be with my friends and family, because, well, i can’t really be without them (!). and, i’d like to take it all in stride. sure, it’s birth and it’s serious. but i think a small amount of lightheartedness could take us a long way. lastly, i really really want to deliver at the birth center. i guess that’s the part of the plan that i feel like i really can’t control, though we got some good natural induction tips from the birthing class lady.
other than that, i’m cool. whatever happens will happen and team henri will get through it. that is, if we can ever get it started…